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Saturday, August 18, 2007
It's REALLY Happening

We went to Bre's College Orientation yesterday, she leaves on September 3 to life 2+ hours away. I won't see her every day any more...I won't know what she's wearing...what's she's doing...who's she's with...if she's happy or sad...I am NOT liking this at all. I knew that the time would come...I always knew that my children would 'move on'....haha...They ARE supposed to...right? What I didn't know is how much I'd hate it...how hard it would be for me. WHY DO WE PUT OURSELVES THRU THIS????????? Sometimes the cycle of life makes NO sense to me whatsoever.

Last night both of my kids were home...we lazed around watching movies and chit chatting about the past and the future...It was nice...then it hit me...THIS could be the last time that the 4 of us are together until Christmas. With both kids in school and working the likelihood of us ALL having time off together is slim...and with the kids living in opposite directions the possibilities of going to see them BOTH at the same time are slim as well. I guess that it's a good think that Lloyd and I have NO life outside the kids because we may be on the road alot the next few months.

I feel very alone at the moment, I try not to bring the kids down, especially Bre since it's all new to her, with my insecurities. My mom is gone...my dad is useless...the ONE person that i'd usually talk to about this kinda stuff, my sister Terri, deals with NEVER seeing her child again, so I don't feel comfortable talking to her about it...in comparison it seems very insignificant. My hubby tries...but...well....hmmmmm....haha.

I know that I'm not the first person to go thru 'empty nest' syndrome and I won't be the last! I'll survivie....I always do...BUTTTTTT...I don't have to like it.

On a lighter note....The summer has been pretty good. I've spent some quality time with the kids and with Terri as well as Hubby poo. We made it to our 24th wedding anniversary...Everyone is healthy...Kids are happy... Life could be worse...

Here are a couple pics for you viewing pleasure...haha


AWWWWW, young love
Contentment
Pure Happiness
Watch Out Justin....She may have a NEW man!

Friends

New Hair...AGAIN


YES...for those of you who are wondering...I DO have a son...and I DOOOOOO love him as much as Bre...however, HE HATES PICTURES (he gets it from his mother, haha).
This is proof!
We have our annual 'redneck' reunion today so I am going to TRY to get a few more pictures of him...haha.