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Saturday, February 25, 2006
This...That...AND The Other Thing!

Wow I can't beleive it's been nearly a week since I last posted...time certainly does FLY!!!!
Baby girl came home on Friday night, she and her dad went to a hockey game and had a great time, they didn't get back here til 1ish though so everyone was tired (I waited up for them). It was great to have her back in the house and she was genuinely happy to see us...for a few hours! I'm not sure why but I expected her to want to me joined at my hip or something...you know "I love you so much mommy...I missed you" that sorta of stuff. I guess that just doesn't happen at 17. She then left on Monday to spend a couple of days in Orono with the Big guy...she did want to see him but there were alterior motives as well...she had a BIG date...she wanted to go to the tourney games...getting her hair done...and she was taking my car to the shop to get the Spedometer fixed (still broken, had to order a part). She had a good time and came home all smiles. I took Thursday afternoon off to spend with her, went to Newport then home for movies with her and a friend...it was nice.
Big guy was supposed to come home last night but couldn't because of bad weather...yes we finally got some snow, just when I thought that spring might be right around the corner, he's coming home today to celebrate my birthday with me...Both of my kids will be here...YIPPEE for me! I'm hoping for a relaxing evening...dinner at my dads...movies with hubby-poo and the kids...maybe some cribbage...Yup...that's all I want. Oh...and to turn back time about 10 years...not cause I'm going to 42 (YIKES) but because my kids would be 7 and 10...My babes would be back...ha ha ha.
I really wish I had something exciting to talk about today but I just don't. Same old same old...THE SUN IS SHINING...I think it's only about 10 degrees out but it sure does look pretty.
Hope everyone has a great day.

Sunday, February 19, 2006
SAY IT SUNDAY #......?

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Success

Baby Girls First Day at her new school was a SUCCESS. She came home with a smile on her face, of course I couldn't see it thru the phone but I could HEAR it in her voice. She said that the teachers were nice, the students were friendly and LIFE IS GOOD! I only cried for a minute when I hung up with her. I'm doing better then I expected, could be because I know it's only for 3 days and then she's home for a week, I hope that I handle it as well after vacation...when she'll be gone for a full week. As long as she keeps doing well and being happy I can handle anything.
We met with the ENT guy on Tuesday, She will be having her tonsils out in June, after school is out, Dr. told her it would be the most painful thing that she'll ever go thru...it WAS a man...never GIVEN birth so I doubted him right away...LOL. She'll be laid up for about 3 weeks so she'll miss work but at this point work is less important then SCHOOL!
I really have to learn to cook for 2 now...Hubby and I are going to be eating leftovers from tonite for at least a week.

Saturday, February 11, 2006
CHANGES

It's been one hell of a week! Just when I think that our lives are starting to level out I get blind sided...BAMMMMM! The roller coaster ride just intensifies!

Our school system has issues...major issues...it has been going down hill steadily for over 20 years. We live in a very rural area, the school is very small with 20-25 students per class, the academic offerings are very limited with very few options, other then the basics. The guidance office, one man, is a joke and doesn't help much at all. Most of the kids are ON THEIR OWN! I had always hoped that I could just get my kids 'outta there' and onto college with no major issues. I never wanted to be one of those people that lived in a town but didn't want her kids to go to the school...after all a big part of our decision to settle here after we got married was because there was a school right in our back yard...the kids wouldn't have to be bussed an hour or more away.

Baby girl has been complaining for over a year about wanting to go to a different school for many reasons, I'd always felt that most of them were social, see she's a social butterfly and likes new and exciting people around her.

This week she came home in tears...tears of fear...she went on to tell me that she was stupid...that she'd never get into college...that she'd learned nothing here since middle school and if she didn't do something very soon she'd never amount to anything. She's seen how hard things have been for her brother since entering college and he graduated with honors from good ol' GHS. Baby girl struggles to keep B's & C's. It is impossible for me to tell her that it's HER because I know how terribly our school is lacking. I now many other kids who are going thru the exact same things/ Our english department has had 8-9 different teachers in the past 4 years, One year alone there were 4 different ones. There is NO consistency throughout the school and it is very hard to RESPECT many of the teachers. Anyway....enough babbling...the bottom line is that my baby girl is LEAVING!!!

She starts at a new school on Monday, about 40 minutes away from ME! She will be living with my sister and family during the week and coming home on week-ends, vacations and summers. I know how lucky we are that this option is open to us and I know that it is the RIGHT thing...but it is so hard to think of not seeing my baby girl every morning, even if she IS grumpy, and getting a hug every night before I head to bed. Not interacting with her on a daily basis...HELL...I was supposed to have another year and a half before dealing with that.

I am doing pretty well...today...no tears for almost 48 hours. I know that the waterworks will start again as soon as I leave my sister's house. I will talk to my baby every day on the phone, probably several times in fact, and IM is a GREAT thing, I'll be visiting often too.
I may even see more of her when she's not living in my house then I did when she was...AND...maybe...just maybe...we will appreciate each other and our time together even more. Yeah...that's the attitude...I can do this...We all can!
Here's To New Beginnings!

Monday, February 06, 2006
American Idol

Hubby and I watch American Idol, one of the few shows that we can both tolerate. While watching last week I could kept wondering WHY anyone would put themselvs thru such humiliation. How could these people really think that they had talent...I mean some of them actually sound like they are dying a slow, painful death. They are sooooo bad that I actually get imbarrassed for them and then they come out all mad at the judges because they really think that they were 'wronged' by the mean Simon. It's really quite pathetic....but....then....YIKES...I though back to my high school days, so very many years ago, and remember performing on stage several times. We used to have variety shows and concerts several times a year and for some reason I felt it necessary to stand up in front of my classmates, teachers, family...ect. and SING, or at least my version of singing. I, of course, thought I was terrific, I WAS WRONG! I remember my friends always avoiding me when I'd ask how I'd done, they'd kind of hem and haw and say very little. I also played the Saxaphone and did solo's quite often...this I did fairly well and my performances were quickly complimented, by friends and family...why did it NEVER dawn on my then that the lack of compliments on my singing was because I really SUCKED! Why Oooooooo why hadn't someone told me to STOP making a fool of myself. Oh well....considering the fact that I usually had more then a couple of drinks BEFORE the show, I probably wouldn't have listened anyway. So....I guess the Point is that everyone thinks they are better at the things they enjoy then they actually are! I'm just thankful that I never performed anyplace except on the auditorium stage at my very small school in my very small town. Thank heavens I only tortured those who I knew.

Thursday, February 02, 2006
Are YOU grown up?

25 SIGNS YOU HAVE GROWN UP
1. Your house plants are alive, and you can't smoke any of them
2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question.
3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge.
4. 6:00 AM is when you get up, not when you go to bed.
5. You hear your favorite song on an elevator.
6. You watch the Weather Channel.
7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of hook up and break up.
8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14.
9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify as "dressed up."
10. You're the one calling the police because those %&@# kids next door won't turn the stereo down.
11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling sex jokes around you.
12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore.
13. Your car insurance goes down and your car payments go up.
14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of McDonald's leftovers.
15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt.
16. You no longer take naps from noon to 6 PM!
17. Dinner and a movie is the whole date instead of the beginning of one.
18. Eating a basket of chicken wings at 3 AM now severely upsets, rather than settles, your stomach.
19. You go to the drug store for ibuprofen and antacid, not condoms and>pregnancy tests.
20. A $4.00 bottle of wine is no longer "pretty good stuff."
21. You actually eat breakfast food at breakfast time.
22. "I just can't drink the way I used to," replaces, "I'm never going to drink that much again"
23. 90% of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real work.
24. You drink at home to save money before going to a bar.
25. You read this entire list looking desperately for one sign that doesn't apply to you and can't find one to save your SORRY OLD ASS
SADLY, nearly all of these applied to ME....YIKES!
HAVE YOURSELF A GOOD DAY!!!!!