Thursday, December 13, 2007
WTF...Why didn't anyone tell my how hard this was gonna be?
I absolutely despise 'empty nest'!!!! It should be getting better by now shouldn't it? I should be getting used to cooking for 2! I should be enjoying the peace and tranquility of my home! I should like that I only have to do laundry twice a week! I should like that my house stays clean, except for dog hair! I should be enjoying time with my husband! What's wrong with me? I don't enjoy ANY of that! I'd kill to have total chaos in my house once again. I'd give anything to have to drag Bre's grumpy ass outta bed or tell Dustin to pick up his dirty cloths. I thought I was starting to adjust and THEN...BAMMMM the holidays. Christmas is just not the same without the kids in the house. They did come home last week-end to decorate the tree but now I won't see them again until the 22nd, makes it seem senseless to have the house decorated at all. Dustin will only be home for a couple of days because he has to get back to work. Bre, my freshmen, the one who was supposed to come home every break for at least a couple of years...WELLLLL...She's moving into an apartment on January 1st, so I'll only have her for two weeks too...and she won't be home for the summer because the lease is for a year. Sometimes I really think that child is trying to kill me! I long for the simplier years...the ones when I KNEW that I was needed. I'm really getting sick of crying myself to sleep at night...
Will it ever get better? PLEASE lie to me and say YES!
Dustin and his girlfriend...didn't I mention that he has a girlfriend?
Bre and Ozzie - the ONLY trustworthy man in her life (other then daddy) Did I mention that she and Mr. Perfect broke up...lol
Becca - Bre - Dustin...Did I mention that I miss them?
Ozzie likes THIS tree
Bre...did I mention that she wants to be a Cow girl?
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Rain Rain Go Away!
We had our annual redneck reunion last week end....it rained!!!! A few die hards still showed up and the in-laws (the hosts of the party) seemed to be happy anyway. As promised here are a few pictures of the big event.
Me and BOTH of my children, when did they grow up?
Bre and Dustin...gotta love his face
Hubby's sister and family
Hubby dear stuffing his face
Even with the cold rainy weather everyone that attended seemed to enjoy themselves.
Bre and Justin are away on their very first 'grown-up' week end. They are camping at Old Orchard...without adults...lol. They planned it themselves...paid for it themselves...and I'm sure are enjoying the freedom very much. Bre has gone to Justin's (he lives with his parents) house for the week end several times this summer but this just feels SOOOO very different to me. It's not just about her being gone it's that they are responsible for themselves...I guess it's just one more 'right of passage'...on her journey to NOT NEEDING her mommy any more. I miss being NEEDED!
Guess this is just a preview of what
life will be like after September 3,
College moving day....!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
It's REALLY Happening
We went to Bre's College Orientation yesterday, she leaves on September 3 to life 2+ hours away. I won't see her every day any more...I won't know what she's wearing...what's she's doing...who's she's with...if she's happy or sad...I am NOT liking this at all. I knew that the time would come...I always knew that my children would 'move on'....haha...They ARE supposed to...right? What I didn't know is how much I'd hate it...how hard it would be for me. WHY DO WE PUT OURSELVES THRU THIS????????? Sometimes the cycle of life makes NO sense to me whatsoever.
Last night both of my kids were home...we lazed around watching movies and chit chatting about the past and the future...It was nice...then it hit me...THIS could be the last time that the 4 of us are together until Christmas. With both kids in school and working the likelihood of us ALL having time off together is slim...and with the kids living in opposite directions the possibilities of going to see them BOTH at the same time are slim as well. I guess that it's a good think that Lloyd and I have NO life outside the kids because we may be on the road alot the next few months.
I feel very alone at the moment, I try not to bring the kids down, especially Bre since it's all new to her, with my insecurities. My mom is gone...my dad is useless...the ONE person that i'd usually talk to about this kinda stuff, my sister Terri, deals with NEVER seeing her child again, so I don't feel comfortable talking to her about it...in comparison it seems very insignificant. My hubby tries...but...well....hmmmmm....haha.
I know that I'm not the first person to go thru 'empty nest' syndrome and I won't be the last! I'll survivie....I always do...BUTTTTTT...I don't have to like it.
On a lighter note....The summer has been pretty good. I've spent some quality time with the kids and with Terri as well as Hubby poo. We made it to our 24th wedding anniversary...Everyone is healthy...Kids are happy... Life could be worse...
Here are a couple pics for you viewing pleasure...haha
AWWWWW, young love
Watch Out Justin....She may have a NEW man!
YES...for those of you who are wondering...I DO have a son...and I DOOOOOO love him as much as Bre...however, HE HATES PICTURES (he gets it from his mother, haha).
This is proof!
We have our annual 'redneck' reunion today so I am going to TRY to get a few more pictures of him...haha.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Hello From Greenville
I Can NOT believe how quickly my summer is going...PLEASE...PLEASE...PLEASE slow it down!!!!
Random Bulletts of Bull#$&#$
DUSTIN - 21 year old Son
1. Headed back to College in September. He took a year off to 'find himself'...lol. He's sticking with his previous major, which is Psychology.
2. Will continue to work full time while he goes to school...full time.
3. Turned 21 in March...how to hell did that happen? He is enjoying being 'legal' very much.
I had been very concerned when he took a year off from college that he may never return...HOWEVER...now i know that it was the best thing he could have done for himself. He needed to know what the 'real world' was like in order to 'grow up'. He lives in an apartment about 1 1/2 hours from home with Ben, his room mate.
Bre - 18 year old Daughter
1. Graduated on June 9
2. Accepted at Husson College, Feb. 2007....all set to go...
3. Decided to NOT attend Husson, July 2007...WTF
4. Applied to college at Central Maine Community College in Auburn (twice as far away from home) July 2007 - awaiting acceptance
5. Back with her first 'love' Justin....guess where he goes to college?
Bre has had a very interesting summer, she's been talking about transferring outta Husson after first semester, almost since she got accepted. I'm glad that she decided to do it NOW, instead of waiting until she was already in debt 10 grand. She's decided to get her associates degree to be a Medical Assistant, then possibly go into radiology of some sort. She'd also like to work towards getting her Cosmotology lisence. It's a good plan and I think that she will be happy at CMCC and I know that even if she changes majors that she'll be OK...She's strong and sensible.Her jobs haven't worked out as well as she'd hoped but she'll be ok....just mite have to live on love the first semester of school....lol.
Lloyd, my hubby of 24 years
1. Still working very hard
2. Still playing WAYYY to much WoW
3. Still loves ME...go figure
I think that may be a topic for another post.
Happy Summer Everyone
Monday, June 25, 2007
Bre Anna-Marie Erickson
June 9th, 2007
Daddy's Little Girl
My baby graduated from Greenville High School on June 9, 2007... It's amazing to me that 18 years have passed since the day that she came into this world. On January 8, 1989, the day she was born, there was a terrible snow/ice/sleet storm...the roads were so bad that she had to be delivered at our local hospital, which didn't usually do deliveries, because they felt it was too dangerous to send me to Bangor, 1 1/2 hours away. After 24 hours of labor she made her appearance...all pink and white and full of attitude. That hasn't changed much over the years...she's still full of attitude...lol.
The Family - Dustin 21 (WOW, when did that happen) Hubby, Bre and ME
Bre and her Boyfriend and his cousin
She has turned into quite a young woman...Beautiful...Confident...Intelligent, I'm very proud of her. She is headed to Husson College
Bre and her future roomie
(1 1/2 hours away) in the fall, I can handle that...I may NOT like it but I know that Ican handle it. She is doing a dual bachelors degree in criminology/psychology...ultimately she'd like to be an FBI profiler. I know that she will succeed in anything that she sets out to do...it may not be an easy road but she'll make it and her dad and I will be right behind her to help any way we can.
Greenville High School - Class of 2007
Bre and My Niece Becca, she's next in 3 years
Dustin (He goes back to College in September), Bre (my baby girl), Christal (she's moved to Bangor now) and Ben (Dustin's roomie)