Monday, July 24, 2006
Whoa......Slow it down
I've been having a really hard time posting lately. Things in my life just seem to be spiralling out of control and I can't stop them. Change is EVERYWHERE and I HATE it. Last summer seemed so perfect. I reconnected with an old friend...enjoyed several outings with family that I actually like...both kids were happy and seemed to enjoy their family time with us...our business was going strong...the future seemed so bright! This summer has certainly been disappointing in comparison. The weather has been better but nothing else seems to be "jelling". Everytime I try to recreate the magic of last summer I fall short....I feel like I just can't get it quiteright. Maybe I'm expecting too much, trying too hard...maybe last summer was soooo good because I expected NOTHING...I just don't know what to do any more....I'm sick of being disappointed and unhappy...I want to ENJOY some of this summer but I just don't know how...STRESS seems to be the only thing that is NOT in short supply...
I know the life is cyclic and the happy, stress free days will return but PATIENCE has never been one of my strong points and summer is sooooo very short...
HELP
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