Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Let's Pretend
My daughter will be taking her first solo trip to her boyfriends house, 2 1/2 hours away, on winding back roads, she is a very good driver and I KNOW that she will be fine, but I'm very nervous about the trip. Of course I am pretending that it is no big deal, I'm very good at that, but I have been up nights worrying about it, I've played out every worst case scenario in my head and I know that I won't get a good nights sleep until she gets home. I know that she has no idea how worried I am about it, I don't know what I will do when she is able to tell when I am just "pretending". Her first time on a plane, she was 13, my first time as well, she was sure that she was going to die, every day for weeks leading up to the flight she would say to me " I have 10 days to live...I have 9 days to live...I have 8 days to live" etc. we ended up having to give her a tranquilizer to get her on the plane, I really thought that we would have to drag her, kicking and screaming, once on the plane she loved it and still does, Well during this whole time I, too, was scared shitless but I never let on, if I had she would have never gotten on that plane, and neither would I. I guess that I will just have to look at this trip in the same manner, it will be good for her...she will be spreading her wings...experiencing something new....and hey, I'm honing my "pretending" skills. Guess it will be a win win experience.....I hope!
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