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Friday, February 23, 2007
First "Solo" Road Trip

My baby girl...OK...so maybe it's time to STOP calling her 'my baby girl', she's 18...Anyway, I digress....
Bre (baby girl) is away for a couple of day with 2 of her girlfriends. She is actually going 'out of state'. This is the first trip for these girls without their parents...They were all so excited, you'd have thought that they were going across country, they are actually just going to New Hampshire, which is only about 5 hours away from here. This is the first time that they could rent a motel room without one of their parents doing it for them.
I've been on the verge of tears since she left, in fact when she stopped at my office to say good bye I actually cried when I said good bye...THIS IS STUPID...I know, She'll be in college in less then 6 months and I'll never know what she's up to. I think what's upsetting me so this time is that I KNOW in less then 6 months my entire world is gonna change. I just don't think I'm ready for this...OK...Truth is...I KNOW THAT I'M NOT READY! I'm trying very hard to not let Bre know how freaked out I am over the whole 'empty nest' thing, I don't want her to start stressing over it, I don't want her to know that every time we do something together I wonder if it'll be the last time we do it (yeah...I know a little dramatic-but that's how it feels). I don't want my fears to keep her from being excited to start her new life. I wish that she could see things from my perspective once in a while but I know that until she has children of her own she won't be able to...JUST like I couldn't until I had children. I remember my mom telling me that...she was right!
GROWING UP really sucks at times...It's kinda odd how most days I'd give just about anything to be a kid again and EVERY day Bre would give anything to NOT be a kid...If she only know what the real world had in store for her! I hope that her life, as an adult, is all she hopes it will be.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I'm Still Alive And Kickin'

So...Yeah...I've been MIA for a month or so...Sorry...really I am..ME BAD!!!!
Lots going on in my life. So Lets go with a 'Random Bulletts Of Crap' post today
  • I survived the holidays...always a joyous event for me...sooooo very glad it is behind me
  • My baby girl turned 18...holy shit...most days I don't feel much more then 18 myself...how did this happen!
  • Christal is still with us and things are going quite well...two teenage girls...with raging hormones in the house plus ONE ME...is not always an easy mix...I feel very bad for my poor husband at times...I get over it quickly though...lol
  • Bre had an emergency apendectomy 2 days after her 18th birthday - she is recovering nicely but had to quit basketball for the rest of the season...which means FOREVER since she is a senior now...boohoo
  • Both girls were fit for their caps & gowns for graduation...YIKES it's really gonna happen...I'm truely gonna be an 'empty nester' soon...too soon.
  • Taxes are DONE...Yippee...this means that my FAFSA forms are completed as well...what a relief
  • We are not going on vacation this year - Whoa is me. It seems that nobody thinks that they need to pay their bills this year...we have more money on the books this winter then we've ever had...Sometimes I hate hubby-poo being self employed.
  • Sister Terri and I went to the movies the other day, we saw Dreamgirls...It was a spectacular movie... I just loved it
  • We have had nearly no snow this winter and no...Just as I can nearly taste spring...we are supposed to get two feet of the fluffy white shit...Oh well, the businesses in my area will be very happy, not to mention my girls - they can't wait to get out there snowmobiling

That's about it for now just wanted to let you all know that i'm still "alive and kicking"